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March 12th, 2008

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12:39 pm - How high can you fly with broken wings?
I nearly went a week without binge purging. It makes me mad; the lack of self control I have. And the thing that pisses me off the most is the fact that I'm dependent on some guy to control this.

Basically to cut the story short, I met a guy at a party a couple of weeks ago, and we've started talking last Wednesday...and since then I've seen him 3 times, and talked to him every day. Yesterday he got the cafe I usually go to, to make the area we sit in candle lit...but since I've started to know him, I've stopped binging and purging. And today, the one day he's away for an interview...and I haven't talked/seen him all day, is the one day I lose control.

Oh I dunno, I'm feeling so bloody helpless and weak, because I feel like he's the one stopping me...not my own personal choice. And it's like he HAS to be here...and I have to see or talk to him for a long period of time before I feel fine.

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Date:March 12th, 2008 08:47 pm (UTC)
Hmmm...we've all been dependent on a guy at some point, unfortunately. I guess it will just take you some experience to realize it's not worth it. OK, well that's my jaded cynical view. But eventually you'll get a taste of independence and self-reliance, and it is amazing...you'll never want to leave home without it.

Just a warning to you, eventually, the fact that you feel you *need* him will become apparent to him, at most likely it will not be an attractive quality to him. Try not to put all your eggs in one basket.

Good luck to you, girly :)

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