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March 12th, 2008


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zerogrl
04:45 pm
does anyone ever convince themselves that they are recovered for no reason other than falling out of the b/p cycle for a bit?
somehow every month i manage to convince myself that i magically recovered. i feel like i'm on some kind of schedule in regards to my b/ping. it's something like: feel out of control and b/p like crazy every day, 8-10 times a day. then suddenly stop during the week i have my period, and gradually start again a few days later. i don't know if this has to do with my period, or the amount of hormones in my birth control pills throughout the month, neither, or both. but for that amount of time each month that i don't b/p, i always think i am better... because the urge is completely gone... until my appetite kicks in again.
my period is also almost non-existent, even while on the pill. this time i only had it for a day. i always wonder if i would get my period without the pill. i really feel like i would not, but i am too scared to find out.
also, my butt hurts like crazy if i'm not sitting on a very padded surface. what the fuck, do i have to like, cover my ass with menstrual pads now? i'm pretty sure there are now padded undies that are supposed to make someones butt look bigger (like padded bras... for your ass.) maybe i have to start wearing those! damn.

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From:alittlechange
Date:March 12th, 2008 09:25 pm (UTC)
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I've never convinced myself I've recovered but I do have phases like that. I might be able to not b/p for a few days or I'll just be doing it a lot less, then suddenly bam 3-4 times a day, the only thing on my mind.... Yep.
From:relationsh1t
Date:March 12th, 2008 09:29 pm (UTC)
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I get those phases all the time. It's really dissappointing because all of the sudden, after doing so well and feeling so proud of yourself, you're head is back in the toilet 5x a day
From:joyfullynumb
Date:March 12th, 2008 11:39 pm (UTC)
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"does anyone ever convince themselves that they are recovered for no reason other than falling out of the b/p cycle for a bit?"

There's not enough 'yes' in the world.

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