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March 11th, 2008

09:18 am - Confused?
 So I'm confused! Where to post?

Okay, last night after dinner. Me & Juan wen't "smoking",like we usaully do. We got home, & then I go & "wash my face"....
I do, put that is my purging time. I took a bit longer than normal ,& I was a bit load.
While a was looking at my veggies in the porcaline bowl, floating around... I heard a knock on the door- Juan. He asked if I was okay, & am I only washing my face??? He heard me...? Maybe? He didn't say anything when I was done. Hope to keep it that way!  
I'm not eating red meat- beef,lamb & pork. But I had this fucking craving for meat, last night I did a little bit of s/c.... So,so stupid of me!!!!!!!! 

Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: Korn- Twisted Transister

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01:22 am - newbie...sorta O=)
hey girls...

this is my first post ever, ive been lurking for awhile now n i wana introduce myself... 

sry for goin on forever, anyway, i love this community, i never realized i could relate sooo much to ppl who ive never talked to. 

ah weirrd... it feels almost like by posting ive like "solidified my commitment" to mia... you know what i mean? hard to explain

hope to be able to give n get support from u guys, =)

xx L

Current Mood: tiredtired

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March 10th, 2008

04:43 pm
 Just saying I joined....I have never much to say or add. :)
Current Mood: crappycrappy

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March 11th, 2008

12:07 am - Im so lame!
I am so scared of the purgatorium falling apart!  I know it is stupid.. but whenever I am having problems with my ED I always have the purge to fall back on..
I just realized this place (the purge instead of just purge) existed and now I feel strange and crying (nothing to do with you all, I have just been  b/p all day and am crazy emotional)..  Thats what I get for only reading some the last few days and not all... and trying to completely ignore the troll.

Current Mood: distresseddistressed

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March 10th, 2008

10:25 pm
I totally can relate with Kim.......fuuuuuukkkk....she's got 6 years on me.....what relief she must of had....she aint better tho...
Current Mood: sadsad

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10:12 pm
ok guys, so I have never posted pictures before, so this is my first time "testing"......

this is a pic of what I ate today!! ugh...healthy?? lol

before being cook

cooked !! lol

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11:09 pm - new macro
I've been told it's disgusting, I don't think it's that bad.

I will work on more tomorrow, when I'm more familiar with this damn photo program.

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10:53 pm - Getting Scared.

Ugh. Okay, so we've got A LOT of new communities sprouting up. We've got this purgatorium, + sinfullysweet, + the orthorexia/non-purging bulimia community. NOW I'm starting to get worried. The point wasn't to split up, it was just make a small move from one home page to another so that we could have active moderators...I'm not liking everything being split up and classified. It's scaring me a bit, to be honest. I hope starting this community wasn't the catalyst. I had the best intentions, honestly. Just don't give up on us, people, and we can get through this. We better. This place is my home, basically.

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March 11th, 2008

02:10 am - Regarding LJ etiquette? (x - posted) LOL
Regarding LJ etiquette?    I need to ask: - How acceptable do you guys find x-posting??

Because with 2 Purgs. up and running for a while PLUS x_guernica_x 's new place PLUS my own journal, there may be some x-posting going on.

How do you people feel - acceptable?   annoying?  unnecessary?  It's just that I don't know who's going to be reading here, there or everywhere and it'll be harder to keep track of friends.  I know that there's always your flist but not everyone we want to talk to is actually an added friend.

Am I making this too complicated?
Thoughts appreciated about all of this.  Lets not all split up.

Current Mood: confusedconfused

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March 10th, 2008

07:11 pm
I just want to cry and cry
crawl into a hole and die.

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09:52 pm - I am eating...
Stolen lofthouse cookies!

Three addictions all at once. Sugar, stealing, and eating. No wait, four: things with sprinkles.

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08:29 pm
 whoa, 2 purgatoriums.  I think i will stay a memeber on the first one until it dies out tho.  I hope this one takes off.

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March 11th, 2008

01:28 am


not only am i here and pretty much up-to-date on my friends page BUT i have also managed to get round to setting up the non-purging/orthorexic/anorexic/restricting type community to be run along the same lines as the purge.

and so... due to demand...



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March 10th, 2008

08:59 pm
 Hey guys, I brought the donuts!  he he


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March 11th, 2008

08:57 am - more active

Hi all. I am going to let more of myself out there. I admire how you can do that so easily. Maybe because I'm older or just used to keeping secrets.

Here is what is happening with me. I feel like a hypocrite. I have a sister who is morbidly obese and has gotten out of control since my mother died a few years ago.

She has mild aspergers and doesn't trust anyone but her sisters. She would not go to a dietician or even a doctor about her weight so I as the oldest sister have been nominated to help her with a program to lose weight and control her food addictions!

What a laugh! I probably eat more than she does! I will do it as I can talk the talk and walk the walk but I feel like shit about it.

She wouldn't be able to cope with her big sister with problems because of her fear of change so I can't be honest with her.

Tell me Im doing the right thing?

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March 10th, 2008

06:17 pm
okay so i dont post that often but i have a question.

    Do any of you experience numbness or tingling in your lips/cheeks after you purge?? this has happened to me lately and its tres bizarre. its now also happening when im not purging. Also, may i recommend -- NEVER purge sour cream and onion chips... GROSS.

make it a good one.

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09:16 pm
You know it's meant to be a binge day when...
...mid binge a guy on your floor knocks on your door. And gives you a massive foil covered clocolate egg, along with some maltesers.

I feel I should have a sign on me stating "Don't feed the bulimic."

On a (hopefully) positive note, I've got an appointment with a university councilor on Friday. Not an ED specialist, but hopefully whoever it is can point me in sort sort of correct direction. And it's free, so why not? Of course, the week after that I'm moving to London for my Easter holiday to work. I can't afford this shit! Gah.

Now I feel a bit like Bridget Jones, and that's vaguely disconcerting.

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02:28 pm
 It is 2:30pm and I just woke up. Yay me lol, because I had no sleep since Saturday. I'm on this new medication called "TRAZODONE", the one I was on before didn't worked at all, "PROZAC". 

Is any body else in TRAZODONE? 
What side effects are you experiencing?
Current Mood: awake

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02:34 pm
 So it's Ben and Jerry's 30th birthday. And of course that means I get to celebrate, too. Well, I don't know if it's that much fun... I bought the birthday cake batter ice cream. And I'm eating it right now. And I'm going to purge. 

I don't even like what I'm eating anymore, I just sorta do it so I can purge afterwards. Has anyone else learned to hate the majority of food because of bulimia? I hate eating. When I'm not purging I'd rather just not eat. I mean, sometime I'll crave things, but I don't really want them. I hate the headaches and fatigue I get from starving, but sometimes I wish that was still my vice. 

Well, I've got to go deal with this birthday party I've got in my stomach. *sigh* Sometimes it all gets old...
Current Mood: fullfull

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01:55 pm - so demanding
Has anyone seen those new dove chocolates with the messages on the inside of the wrapper? Mine keep telling me to do the impossible. "Sing along with the elevator music," YEAH, I'll get right on that. I'm in college, what elevator?

I should stop eating sugar. It angries up the blood.

On another topic, does anyone else here binge on completely disgusting things that they would never eat otherwise? I usually cannot stand the look, smell, or thought of curly fries. But I go into the campus sub shop and I just get this urge to slosh around a bunch of crunchy, greasy potatoes. Maybe it's because I know that it will *make* me sick. Here's why I'm complaining: It's a spicy purge. After I'm done, it feels like I swallowed drain-o.
Current Mood: tiredtired

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12:46 pm - Whoaaa!!
I can't remember the last time that I posted in the Purg but boy have I missed out on a lot. I've added this community because I don't want to be left out. I read occassionally in the Purg I just haven't felt that I had anything worth sharing so I just didn't post. That place has significantly changed over the past few months. Anyway, I just wanted to make my presence known and let my few friends know that I'm here.
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful

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01:38 pm - HELLOOOOOOO
Hello ladies!!!!

Sooo I have my very first bulimic injury. When I was drunk and b/ping on Friday night the toilet seat fell down on me and now I have a little bruise on the bridge of my nose. It's a lot ouchier than it sounds :(

Ahhh the many trials and tribulations of "mia". (Sorry Limey I had to say it. FLAME AWAY SISTER!!!) :)

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10:59 am
Iiiiii dunno girlies, I think I may stick w/ The Purge and see how things fan out. I can see things being either a)kinda boring here or b)Well..what can I say, I'm not one for authority.

G'luck dolls!

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07:35 am
 I just wanted to say THANK YOU to the mods of this!

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March 9th, 2008

09:03 am - woop
so i'm leaving for boston after my OC appointment today. i probably won't be around until friday night or saturday.

i'm gonna miss my girls!!!

love, hugs, and kisses <3

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March 10th, 2008

10:41 pm - Fresh

Ohhhh new home, I know I'm not the most consistent poster, but I am a consistent reader.

Am freaing out to the max about my ED appointment on Thursday. Also seeing my psych tomorrow. Haven't done food journals - my bad. I do know that for the last week I haven't purged, due to a massive infection in my teeth/mouth. Most excruciating pain ever, all I could eat was mushy weetbix and yogurt, and antibiotics plus painkillers equals major bloating and fullness. Yet I still could not bring myself to purge, let alone binge... I just wallowed in self pity and slept a lot.

Hmmm I should go to bed, early start at uni tomorrow. I like the new house. Nighty night, don't let the bed bugs bite. 

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03:17 pm - Joined!

I'm glad most of us can call this our new 'home'! I feel comfy here....

: * 

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02:18 pm - Concern
I don't know about all this stuff. I definitely like the idea of moderative membership and locked posts and active 'insider' mods and a new community. It just sound like an utopy.
I hope we all can materialize this.

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08:01 pm
So, should we delete the other one off our friends list? Is this a temporary or permanent residence?

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10:26 pm
Hey, I'm leuc. just binged on toast and want more! grrr. trying to kill B/P by restriction, but it ain't working too well. 

so i'm a self confessed laxative junkie because my BF will catch me purging otherwise, but i'm about to move away from him, so i guess it'll take back over until i see my parents again. Ahhh joyeous! /sarcasm.

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05:18 am - Wow.....
I just woke up and I'm groggy...........y'all just let me know what you want me to do.........

hugs and kisses

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04:54 am - Ridiculous I say!

I'm still up....like wtf?! It's 5am. Waaayyyyy too much on my mind.....not diagnosed....but I think manic state...I dunno....everyone differs with that...

Current Mood: lonelylonely
Current Music: Streetlight Manifesto - A Better Place, A Better Time

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05:22 am - Eatbeast gets no sleep.
Because of all the flaming earlier, I ended up digesting my binge (which included an entire bag of munchos). I guess I don't feel so bad about it now that I'm staying up all night to write a paper (I lost the prompt and have no idea what the requirements are) and have no more food, resulting in hunger right now.

Maybe if I finish by 7 am, I will go to breakfast at the dining hall. Soggy grapes and concrete french toast. Yum.
Current Mood: hungryhungry

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03:54 am - about membership
We're hoping that all the members of the purg will transfer over here, so I have changed the settings to open membership, as it is with the original community. Maybe after some time we will moderate who can and cannot join.

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03:51 am - shameless self promotion part 1, what do you think?


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09:38 am
Woot woot!!!!

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12:37 am - first ed related post
i'm bingeing on crackers instead of writing my 16 page paper that is due in the morning. 

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12:21 am - randoms celebrating the beginning of this new community

ribbon cutting woot

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